I always thought I can make it back being single...
and still a virgin..
but it seems that didn't happen...
and yes we both are happy together at least..
for now..
I'm tired to think right now...I am just NOT certain I can love him.
I hope he can be patient with me.
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Wednesday, July 25, 2007
Tuesday, June 5, 2007
Oh..my god..
Finally I skipped class...
kinda reminded me of back last year during SPM I've kinda skipped school a lot of times. I couldn't bare the...pressure this morning in Fine Art class...=/
I could say my anger management wasn't in check either..so I kinda passed up very ASS shitty work in class. So here I am skipping Design 2 class...geez I hate that class too...and I hate fine art class too..@_@;;
So sorry to our tutor Wai Ho cos I kinda pulled a sour face at you when you kinda asked me if I'm alright. bahahaah..
I'm thinking of skipping communication skills tomorrow though...HMMM..
Will think about it..8D
~~~连小凤
kinda reminded me of back last year during SPM I've kinda skipped school a lot of times. I couldn't bare the...pressure this morning in Fine Art class...=/
I could say my anger management wasn't in check either..so I kinda passed up very ASS shitty work in class. So here I am skipping Design 2 class...geez I hate that class too...and I hate fine art class too..@_@;;
So sorry to our tutor Wai Ho cos I kinda pulled a sour face at you when you kinda asked me if I'm alright. bahahaah..
I'm thinking of skipping communication skills tomorrow though...HMMM..
Will think about it..8D
~~~连小凤
Tuesday, May 29, 2007
Its always nice to know...
Thats least you know one of your relatives is also a blogger.
This is a shout out to my sis-in-law Ying =) I know I may have been rather quiet eversince form 2. But reality does hit me hard when I read through the daily life she goes through. It is tough..and I sometimes do realize I could be a bit of a nuisance. *sigh*
And if it wasn't for her blog....I would never know whats going on with my bro or my niece and such. =) I rarely talk to my brother eversince the argument 2 years ago thanks to Daddy-dearest...it really hurts to shut out everyone I was close with from my life.
Sometimes it makes me wonder if I had a better life if things didn't go so sour. But this is my life as it is so I better make good use of it. I have not many to talk to about my problems or anything...its mostly my mum but she too I have shell myself up from her. I lost a lot of trust in anyone and pretty much confused. But family values do matter... I have looked up to my brother actually as a father figure since small and my older sister as my 2nd mum.
I was loved and cared properly. For that I very much appreciate that at least some one was taking care of me. But somehow I ended up not contacting them anymore because of things that I should say all three of us might not be able to talk about. They have children of their own..so maybe I am a bit jealous...can't really blame them. Its my own nature to be at least jealous but I'm happy that they are happy with their family and living a good life.
Call me a bit too sensitive. Sometimes I do realize how much they worry about me thanks to my habit of not contacting even for 2 years. I almost reach on to the point of insanity thanks to peer pressure and also to major conflicts with my mum back in Sabah. Our oldest brother also do worry about me but we never did talk much. I couldn't even bring a proper conversion with him. I'm just too shy to my own siblings...I always felt small and little.
I could be exaggerating but it is normal for one to face such a moment. I do know I treat my dad like shit...but it is not my own doing either. Being bashed up by your own foster father is as bad as your real mother not wanting you at all. Wasn't really a happy kid back in primary school...I was already in depression.
I may act horribly ignorant. But when you come to think about it in someone elses shoes. There is reasoning to many times where I am always mistaken for flirting. But I have no sense of knowing wether I am a girl or a guy. I just act how I acted around my siblings. So misconception is always on me...=/
And it did happen recently and sometimes its best as always to explain what was going on in reality.
Call this post a bit to over emotional...but heck. Least I know what I'm writing...=) I'm happy for now as I am busy with my college life and getting use to the community. But its not high school anymore for us. Once you mess with the gang...its permanent. Lesson to learn which I know would eventually happen. But meh
shit happens.
and yes I honestly can say this..eventhough I was with my former bf for almost 3 years (I didn't mention 2 years because we weren't certain) I still do not understand how such girls especially those who are really attached to their bfs would get so paranoid to the point of bitching.
oh geez I think I should really put a line across whats female and male...cos I have no sense of knowing my actual gender...
baaah
sucks really.
Getting to know new people is nice. But getting to know your family which you were with your whole life..one more time. Its difficult....very much difficult for me to handle as I only know my foster mum.
sorry readers =P a very emotional posts put to the test...baha..its bad I know but do drop by my sis's place =) Fun reading...and oops XP sumhow I'm reading it! haha
~连小凤
This is a shout out to my sis-in-law Ying =) I know I may have been rather quiet eversince form 2. But reality does hit me hard when I read through the daily life she goes through. It is tough..and I sometimes do realize I could be a bit of a nuisance. *sigh*
And if it wasn't for her blog....I would never know whats going on with my bro or my niece and such. =) I rarely talk to my brother eversince the argument 2 years ago thanks to Daddy-dearest...it really hurts to shut out everyone I was close with from my life.
Sometimes it makes me wonder if I had a better life if things didn't go so sour. But this is my life as it is so I better make good use of it. I have not many to talk to about my problems or anything...its mostly my mum but she too I have shell myself up from her. I lost a lot of trust in anyone and pretty much confused. But family values do matter... I have looked up to my brother actually as a father figure since small and my older sister as my 2nd mum.
I was loved and cared properly. For that I very much appreciate that at least some one was taking care of me. But somehow I ended up not contacting them anymore because of things that I should say all three of us might not be able to talk about. They have children of their own..so maybe I am a bit jealous...can't really blame them. Its my own nature to be at least jealous but I'm happy that they are happy with their family and living a good life.
Call me a bit too sensitive. Sometimes I do realize how much they worry about me thanks to my habit of not contacting even for 2 years. I almost reach on to the point of insanity thanks to peer pressure and also to major conflicts with my mum back in Sabah. Our oldest brother also do worry about me but we never did talk much. I couldn't even bring a proper conversion with him. I'm just too shy to my own siblings...I always felt small and little.
I could be exaggerating but it is normal for one to face such a moment. I do know I treat my dad like shit...but it is not my own doing either. Being bashed up by your own foster father is as bad as your real mother not wanting you at all. Wasn't really a happy kid back in primary school...I was already in depression.
I may act horribly ignorant. But when you come to think about it in someone elses shoes. There is reasoning to many times where I am always mistaken for flirting. But I have no sense of knowing wether I am a girl or a guy. I just act how I acted around my siblings. So misconception is always on me...=/
And it did happen recently and sometimes its best as always to explain what was going on in reality.
Call this post a bit to over emotional...but heck. Least I know what I'm writing...=) I'm happy for now as I am busy with my college life and getting use to the community. But its not high school anymore for us. Once you mess with the gang...its permanent. Lesson to learn which I know would eventually happen. But meh
shit happens.
and yes I honestly can say this..eventhough I was with my former bf for almost 3 years (I didn't mention 2 years because we weren't certain) I still do not understand how such girls especially those who are really attached to their bfs would get so paranoid to the point of bitching.
oh geez I think I should really put a line across whats female and male...cos I have no sense of knowing my actual gender...
baaah
sucks really.
Getting to know new people is nice. But getting to know your family which you were with your whole life..one more time. Its difficult....very much difficult for me to handle as I only know my foster mum.
sorry readers =P a very emotional posts put to the test...baha..its bad I know but do drop by my sis's place =) Fun reading...and oops XP sumhow I'm reading it! haha
~连小凤
Friday, May 18, 2007
Of Rabbids and Orientations = they don't really match you know?
...okaaay..Hikaru(aka Alfred) I am so going to kill you for making me go automatically hooked on this retarded but cute 'rabbids' from Rayman. Deidei is getting his 'Wii' soon and he kinda promised to let me play with the Rayman game as soon as he gets it. aaaaah....wtgheyness.
Actually stuck in CC now waiting for the last day of orientation to start in half an hour's time. Practically watchin what I am showing here early in the morning to wake up my half-already-dead brain.
Now this one just looks wrong I know..they are actually singing 'bla bla bla' instead. Whats worst is that they have the bowl cut hair..and look like a bunch of already too retarded kids and you have to like slap the overly retarded out from the bunch. Ouch..
..gaaah Hikaru if it wasn't for your 'ASS' (aka assignments) I would have come over to your place and grabbed back my Shirousa!..=_=;; but he's kinda giving an impression they are in 'love' together..and...I think I better stop it cos the visualization ain't really helping thanks to the sms 2 days ago...eeek.
Oh yeap..2nd day of orientation was...SUPER ...BORING...and well the person representating the Dean of studies...was kinda going waaaaaaaaay off topic at one point where we were held back in the auditorium for half an hour. Ouch...and she was super bitchy...(well there has to be some bitchy lecturers soon enough to cover up the whole entire sem. So fuck them and leave me be with my ASS)
Met a fellow KK-lian also. HAha...please to know Kelvin! Apparently what made him talk to me is because when I was sitting behind him..I was kinda yelling (?) or should I say being my upmost gheyness/hyperself/random when I stated..*ahem* DOTAAAAAAAA...
oopsies...it seems I was hooked on Dota thanks to...HIKARU..(again). So yeah the upmost random gheyness is when =o=;; I have a tendency to switch topics within 5 minutes and that would be CRAP CRAP CRAP CRAP. Wonder whats in my brain that time....hmm. Poor Hani...she had to bear with my crap the entire ghey 3 hours..or so. (ouch)
I drew some doodles thats kinda as usual...'random' . Geh come to think about it as soon as 'the father' is back from South Africa..I might bug him to get me a new pen drive...Totchi-kun (my another pen drive) is insufficient!..@_@;; argh
bla bla bla
and now I am LATE FOR REGISTRATION...OOPSSSS
~连小凤
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
New look....!!! I think so lolz
BAHAHHAHAHA
actually thats a wig...thanks to miuki-sama for editing and taking my pic =D Its love I tell you..hahaha and I know...but my contact lenses is blue...@_@;;
Haduri is luf...=D its a korean webcam program. (its free to download)
actually thats a wig...thanks to miuki-sama for editing and taking my pic =D Its love I tell you..hahaha and I know...but my contact lenses is blue...@_@;;
Haduri is luf...=D its a korean webcam program. (its free to download)
Jae Joong wannabe turns out to look very Lee Jun ki ..LMAO.
Life is good I should say...I was recently called by The One Academy...=D accepted! But still having doubts on getting into illustration...hmm
I don't have that 'known' thing to do such 'pretty' pics..=/ but I'll see how I can work it out HAR HAR.
~连小凤
Wednesday, March 21, 2007
BREAK UPS ARE WEIRD =D
I officially broke up with my bf of 3 YEARS. I feel happy about it cos I know that in the long run would still have to do this.
Its needed though...well because we both have different lifestyles....I finally met him today ...well we finally got to see each other and I found out from him he's already having another girl in his life...for 3 months already. He tried looking for me this past few months but I wasn't around. D:
oh wel
I'm
HAPPY for him...yet still pretty much HEARTBROKEN. But in reality my GUILT for not being a GIRLFRIEND that is somehow there...out lifestyles just don't go well together. I always keep myself busy...so pretty much yeah.
Just for your info
XD I'm HAPPY OKAY...HAHAHA I'M NOW GUILT-FREE FROM THE CLUTCHES OF LOVE
Least I can have a peace of mind that I just met him again and solved this un-usual relationship out.
I'm happy to be single again and be just me eventhough I do have to face the side-effects of this break up..;P
I'll make it. Just pray and hope I'll make it.
~连小凤
Thursday, March 15, 2007
OMG GHEM GEEE...
Apparently I've been becoming very much easily annoyed....?
Gosh I have a bitch streak starting again...aiyoyoyo. *bitch in making* wheeeee I want more skirts dammit you phat thighs!
Did a bit of camwhoring and came out with something I say u won't see me do it at ALL..its basically makeup+wig+self esteem+photoshop! (tried the making eyes big leh...XDDD ) I even took the effort to remove my lip piercing..*dies*
ahem ignore mah stuuupid skills..XD Yes I love wearing wigs so whuuuttt...
Actually I'm in KLIA leeching on the free wi-fi (and just managed to find a port to charge my laptop HAHAHAHA) and bla bla
see I actually got no bloody things to blog about for now....HMMMM...
OH YEAH...I want a DS ! A pink one if CAAANNN XD no BLACK LA
~连小凤
Gosh I have a bitch streak starting again...aiyoyoyo. *bitch in making* wheeeee I want more skirts dammit you phat thighs!
Did a bit of camwhoring and came out with something I say u won't see me do it at ALL..its basically makeup+wig+self esteem+photoshop! (tried the making eyes big leh...XDDD ) I even took the effort to remove my lip piercing..*dies*
ahem ignore mah stuuupid skills..XD Yes I love wearing wigs so whuuuttt...Actually I'm in KLIA leeching on the free wi-fi (and just managed to find a port to charge my laptop HAHAHAHA) and bla bla
see I actually got no bloody things to blog about for now....HMMMM...
OH YEAH...I want a DS ! A pink one if CAAANNN XD no BLACK LA
~连小凤
Friday, March 2, 2007
Blogging is a daily must...
...well apparently I don't do that. Well not much...haha. I was down with fever/flu/cough last few days. Oh..and I failed my theory test for driving (whoops?) Might need to get a retake somehow...but body ain't being lively...
Cut short...been out too many times brought me into a toll of sheer..REGRET. Yeap you heard me..XD I regret going out too many times though. I have a tendency to fall sick after how many bloody trips.
which is why now I am facing the music..=/
OMG SPM RESULTS COMING OUT SOON...*smacks self*
nvm la spam you with pics for now..
kya Kagami hunneh XD hehehe we took this after celebrating her Belated Bday in Gasoline (no seriously I hate that place)
puhleeze ignore the lame attempt at trying to make a self-title...:D Hello would you like a group of people like this around Kota Kinabalu sometime?
....XD hahaha the most vain guy I ever met in my entire 'cosplay' life..hahaha...he's pretty popular on FRIENDSTER...:D Kaori!
*cough* He was acting all 'Prince prince' that day..@_@ lol and being a practical camwhore..I took his pics for him...(and edited this one la..LOL hahahahaha)
okay girls DON'T SMACK ME..I wasn't trying to be cute (and please ignore that over gay pink stool) and I wasn't trying to be BOU-ish..
Oh screw the community...someone even called me a 'so poh' in Sg.Wang that day...like whoops?...I turned to look and saw it was a middle aged dude..(with a belly) in that corner shop thingy..(near I SOCKS)...and I was like ...oh well humans look at beauty in another way.
I know I'm not pretty..neither am I UGLY! XD (well unless was born to be that way that screw it la u man balls person who called me that!) haha Kagami was pretty mad actually when she heard that. I told her just ignore that dude la. He doesn't know what to say anymore..
its either
A ) Sg Wang people just lack words nowadays thanks to the 'kids' these days that hang around Sg Wang
B) Chinese people are typical (Malays too) so basically it is 'very typical' for them to act that way.
Close one eye >_O and ignore is the best I can do. Other than that..screw you! :D
~Siew Foong
Cut short...been out too many times brought me into a toll of sheer..REGRET. Yeap you heard me..XD I regret going out too many times though. I have a tendency to fall sick after how many bloody trips.
which is why now I am facing the music..=/
OMG SPM RESULTS COMING OUT SOON...*smacks self*
nvm la spam you with pics for now..
kya Kagami hunneh XD hehehe we took this after celebrating her Belated Bday in Gasoline (no seriously I hate that place)
puhleeze ignore the lame attempt at trying to make a self-title...:D Hello would you like a group of people like this around Kota Kinabalu sometime?
....XD hahaha the most vain guy I ever met in my entire 'cosplay' life..hahaha...he's pretty popular on FRIENDSTER...:D Kaori!
*cough* He was acting all 'Prince prince' that day..@_@ lol and being a practical camwhore..I took his pics for him...(and edited this one la..LOL hahahahaha)
okay girls DON'T SMACK ME..I wasn't trying to be cute (and please ignore that over gay pink stool) and I wasn't trying to be BOU-ish..Oh screw the community...someone even called me a 'so poh' in Sg.Wang that day...like whoops?...I turned to look and saw it was a middle aged dude..(with a belly) in that corner shop thingy..(near I SOCKS)...and I was like ...oh well humans look at beauty in another way.
I know I'm not pretty..neither am I UGLY! XD (well unless was born to be that way that screw it la u man balls person who called me that!) haha Kagami was pretty mad actually when she heard that. I told her just ignore that dude la. He doesn't know what to say anymore..
its either
A ) Sg Wang people just lack words nowadays thanks to the 'kids' these days that hang around Sg Wang
B) Chinese people are typical (Malays too) so basically it is 'very typical' for them to act that way.
Close one eye >_O and ignore is the best I can do. Other than that..screw you! :D
~Siew Foong
Friday, February 16, 2007
Valentines day?...and another post...of unknown randomness...XD
I realize my last post was never EVER posted...oh yeah cos blogspot ate it up Oh bloody annoying...newayz...many things happened while in KL...been emo-ing. Been going out...
Went out to Sg.Wang (though rushed) with Dess last week...actually ONLY Dess and then suddenly lotsa people we know off started popping up and hang out with us...WTFOOK...XD its the MOST UNPLANNED situation in mah life...
but hey it was fun LA! Got to wear my new shoes too..RM45 !! (At one utama)
Starry dearies THANKS FOR THAT CINNAMOROLL!! XD Thanks sooo much also for the phonestraps!
um..XD only the doll NOT the bag...but it looks like a SET rite?..XD hahaha no la..that bag I bought wayyy back...:D <3>
um well this one I bought myself..in One Utama..HAHA screw its missing sum gems behind
after the dye was done...and while waiting I did his nails la...that dude ar..super 'vain person in the making' HAHAHA..
...*swts*
Eventhough I had a stupid fight with my nutless no backbone father...managed to get him to buy me Anna Sui stuff B4 all those feuding thing happened ..again
HAHAHA
whee!! Finally!...NOT ONLY THAT...I got him to get me the eyeliner!...and loose powder (ahhh heaven) and that lady got to convince him by throwing in a free lip GLOSS!! X3
and don't EXPECT I'm gonna get a BF!! I will NEVA get ONE...LOL...well I was thinking of Felix *blush* =_= but I'm a bully person...sure GET annoyed la..HAHAHAHA
NVM...
taken at Felix's place...SO BORED>..hahaha...oh yeah I'm using this eyebrow powder from KATE..XD pretty okay leh
even if Hellie does not SEE this...
EVENTHOUGH YOU MAY NEVER EVER READ THIS BLOG...BUT I DAMN LOVE YOU MUCHS!<3<3
Ookay....to my two (no wait) THREE semes...love you all the same..XD eventho in reality two of you are UKES in DENIAL..HAHAHAHA...
*shoots self*
and yeah I'm a shota looking person right..?...RIGHT..
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA...
jackasses..
SCREW YOU VALENTINES DAY!..LETS ALL GO CELEBRATE BLACK DAY LATER!!! HAAHHAHA POOPS!
~ (still can't type my bloody chinese name!)
Went out to Sg.Wang (though rushed) with Dess last week...actually ONLY Dess and then suddenly lotsa people we know off started popping up and hang out with us...WTFOOK...XD its the MOST UNPLANNED situation in mah life...but hey it was fun LA! Got to wear my new shoes too..RM45 !! (At one utama)
Starry dearies THANKS FOR THAT CINNAMOROLL!! XD Thanks sooo much also for the phonestraps!
um..XD only the doll NOT the bag...but it looks like a SET rite?..XD hahaha no la..that bag I bought wayyy back...:D <3>
um well this one I bought myself..in One Utama..HAHA screw its missing sum gems behindand well today I went all the bloody way to Summit <--excuse me MOST TAXIS I asked they don't know where it is?! Its just bloody 5 mins bus ride from Sunway!! (feels like a bloody jakun) HAHAHA.. So what did I do?...on VDAYS I instead go spent my afternoon time at one of my guy friends. Felix la...LOL I dyed his hair...that dude simply can't decide...SO I told him finally.. "Dude, I do freestyle for you la! geeezz"
after the dye was done...and while waiting I did his nails la...that dude ar..super 'vain person in the making' HAHAHA..
...*swts*
Eventhough I had a stupid fight with my nutless no backbone father...managed to get him to buy me Anna Sui stuff B4 all those feuding thing happened ..again
HAHAHA
whee!! Finally!...NOT ONLY THAT...I got him to get me the eyeliner!...and loose powder (ahhh heaven) and that lady got to convince him by throwing in a free lip GLOSS!! X3
and don't EXPECT I'm gonna get a BF!! I will NEVA get ONE...LOL...well I was thinking of Felix *blush* =_= but I'm a bully person...sure GET annoyed la..HAHAHAHA
NVM...
taken at Felix's place...SO BORED>..hahaha...oh yeah I'm using this eyebrow powder from KATE..XD pretty okay leheven if Hellie does not SEE this...
EVENTHOUGH YOU MAY NEVER EVER READ THIS BLOG...BUT I DAMN LOVE YOU MUCHS!<3<3
Ookay....to my two (no wait) THREE semes...love you all the same..XD eventho in reality two of you are UKES in DENIAL..HAHAHAHA...
*shoots self*
and yeah I'm a shota looking person right..?...RIGHT..
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA...
jackasses..
SCREW YOU VALENTINES DAY!..LETS ALL GO CELEBRATE BLACK DAY LATER!!! HAAHHAHA POOPS!
~ (still can't type my bloody chinese name!)
Wednesday, February 7, 2007
Back in KL and swinging the wrong way...!
Nah, not really 'swinging it the wrong way'..just uber tired from TOO much walking. (My dad is a bitch when it comes to transportation...HAHA...walk walk walk) Suppose to have updated this blog when I came on the 5th...of this month. Crazy aite?
On that same day...from KLIA straight to Sunway Pyramid to treat Lavena dearies as promise. Felix came by soon enough...hahaha he wanted something diff but too baaaad Lavena and me already halfway through the brunch and he had no choice but to eat SOME too! lol...
Actually bought Lavena a piggy speaker (which has a usb cable...lol it LOOKS weird okay! Last minute pressie lagi this) from Folio. Whacked! Ahahahaha...it was a last minute option though I was planning on a teddy bear but resisted to splurge on a useless teddy which is only meant for hugging.which is practically useless...it just 'sits' there
okay SPAZZ MOMENT!
Apparently I've read through an Ouran High School Hostclub community in Deviantart regarding a rumour (or if its not I don't know?!) on the casts...
and guess who is doing Hikaru and Koaru Hitachiin twins?...
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.......YUSUKE AND HISATO IZAKI FROM FLAME*its a japanese boyband...heh*!!! (yeah oso the same twins who acted in Devilman...wowzers)
I was utterly...'shocked' . HAHAHA Hunny is gonna be casted by a small kid. Mori DOES NOT LOOK MANLY..HE LOOKS PRETTY..AAAHHH...Kyouya...HOMG most good looking guy amongst ALL (well I'm practically BIAS but w/e)
As stated here for the cast
but then again..its rumors!!..=/ Well one can dream rite?..rite...XD Oh yah theres even a PS2 Ouran game..HAHA
End of SPAZZ MOMENT!
Well yeah back to the part where I stopped. We had brunch at BBQ Plaza (again!! @_@...Lavena maybe I should bring you to Chilis next time??...free refills on soft drinks and juices..LMAO me ish greedy for drinks not fewd..) and spazzed and talk crap even more crap. Haha..poor Felix I hope our BL-fandom didn't scare your ASS off!
oh well he practically 'dragged' me to Midvalley fornoreasonatallbutIthinkMidvalleyisboring!*kena piaked*
Apparently someone spotted me even b4 I knew it! Shinyi saw me pass her...LOL this is my 1st time I was spotted instead of me 'spotting' people (I am a stalker bleh..XD hahaha) I was pretty shocked really...!
...agh..XD;;
~ (kenot write chinese ere..stupid comp)
On that same day...from KLIA straight to Sunway Pyramid to treat Lavena dearies as promise. Felix came by soon enough...hahaha he wanted something diff but too baaaad Lavena and me already halfway through the brunch and he had no choice but to eat SOME too! lol...
Actually bought Lavena a piggy speaker (which has a usb cable...lol it LOOKS weird okay! Last minute pressie lagi this) from Folio. Whacked! Ahahahaha...it was a last minute option though I was planning on a teddy bear but resisted to splurge on a useless teddy which is only meant for hugging.
okay SPAZZ MOMENT!
Apparently I've read through an Ouran High School Hostclub community in Deviantart regarding a rumour (or if its not I don't know?!) on the casts...
and guess who is doing Hikaru and Koaru Hitachiin twins?...
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.......YUSUKE AND HISATO IZAKI FROM FLAME*its a japanese boyband...heh*!!! (yeah oso the same twins who acted in Devilman...wowzers)
I was utterly...'shocked' . HAHAHA Hunny is gonna be casted by a small kid. Mori DOES NOT LOOK MANLY..HE LOOKS PRETTY..AAAHHH...Kyouya...HOMG most good looking guy amongst ALL (well I'm practically BIAS but w/e)
As stated here for the cast
but then again..its rumors!!..=/ Well one can dream rite?..rite...XD Oh yah theres even a PS2 Ouran game..HAHA
End of SPAZZ MOMENT!
Well yeah back to the part where I stopped. We had brunch at BBQ Plaza (again!! @_@...Lavena maybe I should bring you to Chilis next time??...free refills on soft drinks and juices..LMAO me ish greedy for drinks not fewd..) and spazzed and talk crap even more crap. Haha..poor Felix I hope our BL-fandom didn't scare your ASS off!
oh well he practically 'dragged' me to Midvalley fornoreasonatallbutIthinkMidvalleyisboring!*kena piaked*
Apparently someone spotted me even b4 I knew it! Shinyi saw me pass her...LOL this is my 1st time I was spotted instead of me 'spotting' people (I am a stalker bleh..XD hahaha) I was pretty shocked really...!
...agh..XD;;
~ (kenot write chinese ere..stupid comp)
Thursday, January 18, 2007
w-inds.'s 21st Single [Hanamuke//ハナムケ] 17.01.06 (its out! )
...omg I was kinda shocked to actually found out about it today! haha..! *dies* lucky me...I was actually on a random download..apparently the preview was out b4...but the single came out TODAY! *gosh*
I sometimes cry over a fandom I held SO LONG eventhough I can state I was recently jrock and kpop overload..but w-inds. was my 1st and still remaining fandom back from my preteens. 5 years ...(well I kenot beat my mum la...her fandom for Elvis Presley...sampai NOW...HAHAHAHa)
seriously,...this PV brings me to tears as I can say...I've kinda grown up with them. ..and my forever fandom for Ryohei Chiba never ceased eventhough I keep on saying I love HeeChul or Changmin (koreans lulz)
I always wonder..how bout the next 5 years...would they still be staying strong as a group?..I pray they would always..without me randomly stumbling on them back those 5 years ago..i would have never knew jpop/jrock or anything and would have listened to what all the kids listen nowadays...(exmp : emo stuff and pop randomness but i luv them all the same but ain't spending my cash on pop mags hehee)
Keita looks kinda haggard here! T_T omg you got muscles but come on! Skinny?!...Ryuichi....hahaha he looks like a girl here *sorry Ryuichi fans! couldn't bring myself to keeping a straight face*
Ryohei....geez that guy looks so...inhuman..i can tell you HE STILL looks young for someone that old..(what 23 tis year?..I forgot...dammit)..
I'm in tears....when I thought my fandom for them died last year. Somehow...like my mum said. Its okay to dream once in a while. But i guess its due to my sort of 'fan-dedication' to keep on supporting them eventhough I can't actually keep on buying their singles and so on...
sometimes...I cry at my patheticness...I just don't seem to move on at one point...
...cripes.
p.s: I'm srsly emo-ing now...gosh reminds of the days I was emo-ing just because I couldn't get my Ageha limited edition press album from Yesasia...lulz
I sometimes cry over a fandom I held SO LONG eventhough I can state I was recently jrock and kpop overload..but w-inds. was my 1st and still remaining fandom back from my preteens. 5 years ...(well I kenot beat my mum la...her fandom for Elvis Presley...sampai NOW...HAHAHAHa)
seriously,...this PV brings me to tears as I can say...I've kinda grown up with them. ..and my forever fandom for Ryohei Chiba never ceased eventhough I keep on saying I love HeeChul or Changmin (koreans lulz)
I always wonder..how bout the next 5 years...would they still be staying strong as a group?..I pray they would always..without me randomly stumbling on them back those 5 years ago..i would have never knew jpop/jrock or anything and would have listened to what all the kids listen nowadays...(exmp : emo stuff and pop randomness but i luv them all the same but ain't spending my cash on pop mags hehee)
Keita looks kinda haggard here! T_T omg you got muscles but come on! Skinny?!...Ryuichi....hahaha he looks like a girl here *sorry Ryuichi fans! couldn't bring myself to keeping a straight face*
Ryohei....geez that guy looks so...inhuman..i can tell you HE STILL looks young for someone that old..(what 23 tis year?..I forgot...dammit)..
I'm in tears....when I thought my fandom for them died last year. Somehow...like my mum said. Its okay to dream once in a while. But i guess its due to my sort of 'fan-dedication' to keep on supporting them eventhough I can't actually keep on buying their singles and so on...
sometimes...I cry at my patheticness...I just don't seem to move on at one point...
...cripes.
p.s: I'm srsly emo-ing now...gosh reminds of the days I was emo-ing just because I couldn't get my Ageha limited edition press album from Yesasia...lulz
Sunday, January 14, 2007
homg..sunday morning posts..
Talked with Aiko yesterday(or rather around 4AM in the morning TODAY)...
So its kinda planned already. I'm goin as 'wa-loli' (Kimono with lolita accents) and..well I'll just have to wait for her to confirm...and its purple..and also might be getting rocking shoes(also showned in NANA) to match.
oh yes..it has a BLOODY skirt,...omg..I may need to wear bloomers for this...(those white underpants thingy) and bells...aaahh see I told you..i have bad taste..XD haahhaha I rather dress people up!
*dies*
oh well
silly short posts...
wheee
~连小凤
So its kinda planned already. I'm goin as 'wa-loli' (Kimono with lolita accents) and..well I'll just have to wait for her to confirm...and its purple..and also might be getting rocking shoes(also showned in NANA) to match.
oh yes..it has a BLOODY skirt,...omg..I may need to wear bloomers for this...(those white underpants thingy) and bells...aaahh see I told you..i have bad taste..XD haahhaha I rather dress people up!*dies*
oh well
silly short posts...
wheee
~连小凤
Saturday, January 13, 2007
[ I'm going crazy per said ]
Ahhh...
guh...went out wif Dizzy and Mavis (another new friend to me..like wow okay) to Wisma Merdeka...to look for some presents for a friend of theirs. Haha... Apparently also went to do some bit of window shopping and all seeing clothes and stuff. All in all we were practically talking nonsense (Mavis and me) and Dizzy being all damn blur.
I kinda lent her 3 of my mags (yeah in previous post you will see) so yeah a run down on the clothes and such. =D pretty much we were spazzing on the clothes and all haha..!! So heres some funny notes to place down...I realize that
rite...
I'll go emo about this later. I've been reading too much gay stories....and smut stuff on Yuffie x Vincent. I may need to take my driving course next week like homg...yay for cars. Haha...
ha..
hahaha...
*blinks*
oh lookie! this is me without all those gunk and makeup
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bahaha....I used my dad's old phone (now mine) the Sony Ericsson K700...like omg..XD and yes I keep on listening to my ipod 24/7 sue me..it has most of my jrock/jpop/kpop stuff on it..and I like listening to Rammstein..(hahaha) Sorry I'm being a dick now atm..eventhough I don't have a dick in the 1st place...pwahahaha
~连小凤
p.s: This is due to fangirling on 동방신기 (Dong Bang Shin Ki) too much...since like stated...they ARE coming to KL AGAIN...like I said in the previous post...oh screw it..XD hahaha
guh...went out wif Dizzy and Mavis (another new friend to me..like wow okay) to Wisma Merdeka...to look for some presents for a friend of theirs. Haha... Apparently also went to do some bit of window shopping and all seeing clothes and stuff. All in all we were practically talking nonsense (Mavis and me) and Dizzy being all damn blur.
I kinda lent her 3 of my mags (yeah in previous post you will see) so yeah a run down on the clothes and such. =D pretty much we were spazzing on the clothes and all haha..!! So heres some funny notes to place down...I realize that
- Eventhough I'm not doing gothic lolita/ama lolita/any kinds of lolita...I still tend to get suggestions from certain friends on what to put and what to wear..weird rite?(and they are kinda like hoping or rather threatening me to at least try to get one lolita outfit...)
- I prefer dressing people up rather than me dressing myself up
- I can admit I'm not that pretty neither ugly...its just that I had to learn how to love myself in terms of 'being a narcissist'.
- I'm not an active and staunch fan of jrock/jpop/kpop I'm pretty much behind the line all the time.
- I tend to give out too much ideas sometimes I run dry for myself....geez ahahaha
- I'm more of a classic lolita/neo gothic lolita/casual gothic lolita/punk lolita /elegant lolita sort of person...ahaha...XD yes there ARE genres...and it counts wa-loli too! REALLY CONFUSING!
rite...
I'll go emo about this later. I've been reading too much gay stories....and smut stuff on Yuffie x Vincent. I may need to take my driving course next week like homg...yay for cars. Haha...
ha..
hahaha...
*blinks*
oh lookie! this is me without all those gunk and makeup
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bahaha....I used my dad's old phone (now mine) the Sony Ericsson K700...like omg..XD and yes I keep on listening to my ipod 24/7 sue me..it has most of my jrock/jpop/kpop stuff on it..and I like listening to Rammstein..(hahaha) Sorry I'm being a dick now atm..eventhough I don't have a dick in the 1st place...pwahahaha~连小凤
p.s: This is due to fangirling on 동방신기 (Dong Bang Shin Ki) too much...since like stated...they ARE coming to KL AGAIN...like I said in the previous post...oh screw it..XD hahaha
Thursday, December 28, 2006
Bored Post #2 (warning for uber stupid pics)
I'M LOOKING IF ANY PLACE LIKE CC IN DAMAI I CAN WORK PART TIME...IF GOT PLEASE DO TELL...or MAYBE SUMTHIN LAAA...
um sum sort of like...lipstick test..XD my sis-in-law gave me makeup AGAIN..=o=
I can seriously tell you...I like black and white pics..its gaaah
sowie...couldn't RESIST..
I feel so MIKU-fied here (lol too much fangirling is making me ugh
lalala...yes I got it..yay..XD yes I got cleavage..yay..
**PS : ITS SILVER ASH NOT BLONDE...SUE YOUuuuu
~
Wednesday, December 27, 2006
Bored Post (warning for uber stupid pics)
may the Domo be with you
Okay...I turned blonde...well to be more precise I'm more to silver ash hair colour...XD *omg many strangers stated either Kadaj(FFAC) or Dante(DMC)!! hahaha...Frack and Kagami stated I can already do Near from Death Note (wei...L not enough meh..why me have to do NEAR?!)
emo emo emo...
........end of post (I know...I'm lazy la)
But to tell you what I got is.
emo emo emo...........end of post (I know...I'm lazy la)
But to tell you what I got is.
- Range Murata collaboration with Pinky.st (I got all 3!)
- The newest 2 Pinkys that has a new head. (got one can sit down)
- King of Fighter's Pinky.st(2 in one box)
- Street Fighter Pinky.st(2 in one box)
- Togainu no chi figurines(9 normal ones and one secret one)..*
*Togainu no chi is a BL-game(Yaoi)...=P Shiki and his brother Rin are hawt. This figurines are in super deformed form (Chibi SD form)...the details are awesome.
~连小凤
~连小凤
Thursday, December 14, 2006
[ KL trip = Before the trip...lol ]
So yeah... finally..lol there is wi-fi in my sis's area. So chunted lars. So damn tiring actually...30 mins wait at Labuan. Baahhaa....damn my friend came too early to fetch me too. I was at Merdeka at that moment.
My mum bought something too for me... yes please kill me if you think she's crazy. Haha...its a new phone accessory so..theres only ONE left with this face. So she bought it...?
Meet Kuromi..o-o;; I don't know why she bought it. Her reason is because its because got pink skull on it?
I also bought leggings for my friend for her xmas pressie. Its the only pair left. and...
well yeah..strawberries (ichigos) leggings. The last pair...rofl RM18. Bummer...=P its not so expensive la...just right price hahaha. There was another pair...but it was so...ugly..eeww. Haha thank goodness I spotted this leggings before another woman saw it. She saw the other one...lol the ugly looking one and asked her daughter "Dear, how about this strawberry one?You want or not?" *in total chinglish...lol*
The leggings...rofl
The close up..♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
okaayy...back to other things. I bought this *ahem* 'pink' overall top dress skirt thingy *which is seriously too lala..aih sorry to sound HARSH la..but w/e laa hehe*
The dress/top/overall thingy...um the white and pink top inside..is from Diesel btw..o-o;; lol not included with the uh dress/top/overall thingy..
A close up of the design..omg luff♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
I got another outfit too. Um I think I spent almost RM130 on the pink/overall/dress thingy...and another red and black striped top (which comes with a belt..its RM88...so the pink one would be...the rest of the amount) um but the woman actually gave me RM130...the actual pricing should have been RM137.00..? (>_O)
......um okay
too much bombed with PINK..I'm so sorry..LOL I felt like a PINK CANDY FLOSS...grrrr
My mum bought something too for me... yes please kill me if you think she's crazy. Haha...its a new phone accessory so..theres only ONE left with this face. So she bought it...?
Meet Kuromi..o-o;; I don't know why she bought it. Her reason is because its because got pink skull on it?I also bought leggings for my friend for her xmas pressie. Its the only pair left. and...
well yeah..strawberries (ichigos) leggings. The last pair...rofl RM18. Bummer...=P its not so expensive la...just right price hahaha. There was another pair...but it was so...ugly..eeww. Haha thank goodness I spotted this leggings before another woman saw it. She saw the other one...lol the ugly looking one and asked her daughter "Dear, how about this strawberry one?You want or not?" *in total chinglish...lol*
The leggings...rofl
okaayy...back to other things. I bought this *ahem* 'pink' overall top dress skirt thingy *which is seriously too lala..aih sorry to sound HARSH la..but w/e laa hehe*
The dress/top/overall thingy...um the white and pink top inside..is from Diesel btw..o-o;; lol not included with the uh dress/top/overall thingy..
A close up of the design..omg luff♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
I got another outfit too. Um I think I spent almost RM130 on the pink/overall/dress thingy...and another red and black striped top (which comes with a belt..its RM88...so the pink one would be...the rest of the amount) um but the woman actually gave me RM130...the actual pricing should have been RM137.00..? (>_O)......um okay
too much bombed with PINK..I'm so sorry..LOL I felt like a PINK CANDY FLOSS...grrrr
Saturday, December 9, 2006
'Fun' time in airport....
yeah since 8AM till 6.40PM I was in airport...wow..how much patience built me. (considering I'm rather impatient with things)
Oh my gawds, my mum apparently did NOT endorsed the ticket...oh my gawd. I had to CHUP keluarkan RM140 for farking stupid ticket. =X I went for an open ticket 1st but the flights today TOO DARN FULL *sound effects of thunder in the background*
Ahem...
Yes I spent half of my 'day' in airport...geez. =/ A 1st time experience too...in the end I kind of decided to just go on Tuesday to KL. Gah..nasib no need to pay...w00t. I'll have to rush a lot then..omgawd. (okay how many times did I say that?..grrr) Rush buy WIG..MAKEUP PRACTICE...rush BUY...STUPID PLAIN WHITE LONG SLEEVE SHIRT FOR L COSPLAY...=o=
Oh and did I tell you I canceled my trip to Japan?..Its too rush darn oh well another time then. Oh and did you know that anyone age 17 and below (minors) are not allowed to be outside by 11pm? eventhough accompanied by an adult?...=P
Its a true thing. Go search I'm lazy to post up again links because I'm oh oh oh..sooo tired. Meantime Digi's advertisements scares me like OH MY GAWD(again) CRAZY YELLOW FELLOWS...XD;;
~连小凤
Oh my gawds, my mum apparently did NOT endorsed the ticket...oh my gawd. I had to CHUP keluarkan RM140 for farking stupid ticket. =X I went for an open ticket 1st but the flights today TOO DARN FULL *sound effects of thunder in the background*
Ahem...
Yes I spent half of my 'day' in airport...geez. =/ A 1st time experience too...in the end I kind of decided to just go on Tuesday to KL. Gah..nasib no need to pay...w00t. I'll have to rush a lot then..omgawd. (okay how many times did I say that?..grrr) Rush buy WIG..MAKEUP PRACTICE...rush BUY...STUPID PLAIN WHITE LONG SLEEVE SHIRT FOR L COSPLAY...=o=
Oh and did I tell you I canceled my trip to Japan?..Its too rush darn oh well another time then. Oh and did you know that anyone age 17 and below (minors) are not allowed to be outside by 11pm? eventhough accompanied by an adult?...=P
Its a true thing. Go search I'm lazy to post up again links because I'm oh oh oh..sooo tired. Meantime Digi's advertisements scares me like OH MY GAWD(again) CRAZY YELLOW FELLOWS...XD;;
~连小凤
Thursday, December 7, 2006
Online Temptations #1
Hmm...
I'm thinking really...buying online is tempting enough. Just seeing the pics of it brings satisfaction to my eyes. But I can't eventhough my hands are itching to order this. 100 cm and 130 cm shirts..wtf how does this Japanese people even MEASURE?..o-o;;
Is it in width or height..?
nvm
heres what I was talking about.
okay..tempting enough?
aite
okay most boring post ever.But this shirt is so fcking adorable..XD;; I should stop talking about how adorable it is. I'm just gonna say this...I better start designing shirts for myself too..oh lol
~连小凤
I'm thinking really...buying online is tempting enough. Just seeing the pics of it brings satisfaction to my eyes. But I can't eventhough my hands are itching to order this. 100 cm and 130 cm shirts..wtf how does this Japanese people even MEASURE?..o-o;;
Is it in width or height..?
nvm
heres what I was talking about.
okay..tempting enough?
aite
okay most boring post ever.But this shirt is so fcking adorable..XD;; I should stop talking about how adorable it is. I'm just gonna say this...I better start designing shirts for myself too..oh lol
~连小凤
Sunday, December 3, 2006
One early morning post..lotsa of pictures..beware..lol
Oh my goodness!...Gah I just woke up too darn early around 4.30AM and boy...the area was freezing cold!..well not as cold as when I was in Amsterdam lars. Its just COLD. Brrr... couldn't sleep too because my mum wanted me to follow her to church. Yaya...1st saturday obligations...adui I only got 2 hours of sleep jors!
So...I just came back..just to realize I hadn't read up the question paper for arts...omg..when I saw the 1st question.
Whaa? Okay most of the questions...omg must draw figures!...darn darn darn. Sure they look easy...but to me its HARD...=_=;; 1stly I can'tpossibly draw my octopus like this!!
artwork by Meomie Designs
So...I just came back..just to realize I hadn't read up the question paper for arts...omg..when I saw the 1st question.
Whaa? Okay most of the questions...omg must draw figures!...darn darn darn. Sure they look easy...but to me its HARD...=_=;; 1stly I can'tpossibly draw my octopus like this!!
artwork by Meomie Designs But like this very very AIYOYOYO disgusting looking octopus (which has three hearts! wargh look at the suckers!...)
eww..
Conclusion?....seems I'm gonna be cracking my brain on TRYING to draw an octopus. I prefer fantasy or out of the world sort of artwork...the other question was dealing about aliens...but then again..I suck at drawing aliens more than I suck at drawing octopussiespusses...*ahem* Self joke self joke..
I phail maaan..guh
eww..
Conclusion?....seems I'm gonna be cracking my brain on TRYING to draw an octopus. I prefer fantasy or out of the world sort of artwork...the other question was dealing about aliens...but then again..I suck at drawing aliens more than I suck at drawing octo
I phail maaan..guh Ah yes... I decided to try out my camera and took shots of my pinky.st doll Mint. Trying to be artsy fartsy really..but like I said. I phail badly...and she looks so EMO...lol. Waking up early in the dead cold morning (oh yeah I stay near the BIG cemetry as my backyard) can do things to your brain. Especially when your mother and maid are talking nonsense crap in the car and you can't seem to pay attention on the road...
No I'm not driving. My mum is. People usually get accidents due to drinking/influence on drugs or sleeping.
.......how bout laughing?...=/nevermind ignore my rather sadistic boredom..
No I'm not driving. My mum is. People usually get accidents due to drinking/influence on drugs or sleeping.
.......how bout laughing?...=/nevermind ignore my rather sadistic boredom..
Mint in motion
(I just named her today...lol)
(I just named her today...lol)
What better way to take pics...of our unfinished house...or rather room...haha...oops I forgot I took her with the tiny xmas tree we have. (yeah we are so lazy to put out a BIG xmas tree neways...darn)...
~连小凤
~连小凤
Thursday, November 30, 2006
Love me or hate me..I don't care =)
Magnya Carta album by アンティック-珈琲店- is out! (eventhough it was released yesterday..ooops) I'm still trying to get the ticket for their LIVE CAFE・TOUR'07 ｢NYAPPY GO AROUND 2｣ but I guess I can only get the one in Nagoya...ouch..x__x I would be all the way in Tokyo to catch 176BIZ's one man live in Shibuya O-west during January. Now lets HOPE that one doesn't get sold off!...grr do you know anyone else in Malaysia who would be going to this lives? I only know some singaporeans do. I'll be all alone in Ueno if this happens..! Grr...I hate traveling alone. It makes me feel stupid sometimes.
Back to my normal blogging. I really do crave for something...and what more than Green Tea Ice Blended from Starbucks!?...
Oh yeah I'm not a caffeine fan...well I do like to drink Tongkat Ali's 4 in 1 stuff....hmm. But newayz =) If you do ever meet me in Starbucks. Be bound to spot me with ONLY this drink!..geez I never do change...lol. Its yummy okay?..even when the price is like...!#@%!
Like I promised...I posted my babies up. Oh dears...the scribbles on my handphone came off eventually. =/ Sad but then I can still do it again if I want to! Please excuse for the PINKNESS
Jors...what the @!$@% am I thinking?...I still feel wrong with all the pink. When I dress up so...punkish..nevermind my mum said. Its my color..oh geee..Oh taken with my phone camera (the w900i people...)
Back to my normal blogging. I really do crave for something...and what more than Green Tea Ice Blended from Starbucks!?...
Oh yeah I'm not a caffeine fan...well I do like to drink Tongkat Ali's 4 in 1 stuff....hmm. But newayz =) If you do ever meet me in Starbucks. Be bound to spot me with ONLY this drink!..geez I never do change...lol. Its yummy okay?..even when the price is like...!#@%!Like I promised...I posted my babies up. Oh dears...the scribbles on my handphone came off eventually. =/ Sad but then I can still do it again if I want to! Please excuse for the PINKNESS
nuff..said lars I know I know...you shut up lars. Pink too much...dies...I do love other colors.
OOT moment DID YOU KNOW in the MKMF AWARDS 2006... w-inds. was present! Omg...with DBSK and SUPER JUNIOR... I'm so proud of w-inds.! Keita looks so tired. Ryohei eventhough he's !@#@! 22 years old he doesn't look like it (looks at his multicoloured hilites...)
I'll leech off my friend's link. You can view it all HERE !! Because I'm too lazy to talk more rubbish
Gosh, and I thought I make such a good post. I think I just wrote mere rubbish here. Adui...sorry no pics of the Ngau Chap Adz!...seems the one in Lintas no more there....adui.
~连小凤
OOT moment DID YOU KNOW in the MKMF AWARDS 2006... w-inds. was present! Omg...with DBSK and SUPER JUNIOR... I'm so proud of w-inds.! Keita looks so tired. Ryohei eventhough he's !@#@! 22 years old he doesn't look like it (looks at his multicoloured hilites...)
I'll leech off my friend's link. You can view it all HERE !! Because I'm too lazy to talk more rubbish
Gosh, and I thought I make such a good post. I think I just wrote mere rubbish here. Adui...sorry no pics of the Ngau Chap Adz!...seems the one in Lintas no more there....adui.
~连小凤
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